looking for the heart of any night

i shouldn't have read that sentence. not now, now that i'm thinking all the time about what i should do next and where. and why. i shouldn't have read that sentence someone said about never getting a day job. a non creative job, i guess he meant, a regular, cubicle job. nothing wrong with that. just maybe a feeling that something might be missing subtly starts scaring you, and you pull night after night trying to pursue that something, because if you didn't you'd feel you're missing a chance. but in the meanwhile you're missing the big picture, you're losing perspective. you're losing interest in what's important, what should be important, what you thought all the time should be. what if it's not? but what if it is...
check the time, it's late, it's true, but you can't do both at the same time. you're awake now, but you also like to sleep. a lot.